"Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He will strengthen your heart, wait, I say, on the Lord." Psalm 27:14
A few months ago, Brent and I made a very hard decision that will impact our family. We decided to separate from the Army. Once he returns from this deployment, we will have almost a year before he is to get out.
I was sitting down completely confused. (of my own doing) God had brought it to Brent's attention first while he was deployed in 2010-11. In my stubbornness, I didn't see it as a good idea despite the confirmation Brent had gotten from God. So through a series of events and complete confirmation from God to both of us, the decision is final. Out of excitement and misunderstanding I jumped on the band wagon of planning everything out. Where we were going to go, what we were going to do. And in my quick decision making, the Lord also quickly said, "Wait". If there was one thing God had taught me during the last year or more, it was to wait. I tend to get excited about certain things and hear what I want to hear. So there I was, confused. I hadn't been myself and felt lost. I sat down to look up a few passages and remembered I hadn't been in the Word much that week, so I sat down and started where I had left off before moving on to the passages I had in mind. Funny thing is I can't even recall what those passages were. God stopped me in my tracks as I read the verse above. Wait. Wait on the Lord. I sat and looked up the word wait and wrote out what it meant. I sat for an hour and a half just writing on the word wait.
Besides wait, God has been showing me not only what it means to submit to my husband, but how beautiful it is to submit to Him by submitting to my husband. I think I've struggled with this concept my whole married life. Submit has always been a negative thing in my eyes, but I am so thankful that God made me aware of it and is continuing to shape and mold me into who He wants me to be for Him.
Wait. What a concept. Where would be all be if we just waited on the Lord? Instead of taking matters into our own hands, we wait on God's timing or for Him to show us what's next. I think many people's lives would be different. AS for right now, the confirmation has been given, we are following God's leading and getting out of the Army. As to what comes after that.. we are waiting.
